meh.

Okay so in my weakened state. I read all my blogs. Which took an hour. I know slow reader and like 20 blogs is not a good combination. But I would like to say its alexis' fault. It really is this time. She made me look up MBP. Which can I just say WWHHAATTT?! haha I wish I didn't know and they had just deleted it forever so I couldn't read anymore. But oh well.
But on the to the real reason for this post. Because no I'm not like gay Busy Bee Lauren and I don't blog about MBP. haha

Tonight I read something that made me sad, only because I know it is so so true. And I'd like to share. And ask for your support and help in this.

One thing I make sure to do when gearing up for a wedding or shoot...I DO NOT look at other photographer's websites or blogs. Sure I keep up with some of my favorites from time to time, but I don't want THEIR images fresh in MY mind before a shoot. I want my mind to be filled with my ideas and my ideas only. Our number one goal is to set ourselves apart in this industry. The minute you stop trying to emulate and be another photographer, the minute you stop obsessing over their blog and images, you will grow by leaps and bounds. I swear by it. Try it for one month and be sure to stop in and tell me how it goes ;)
-Kara Layne

haha so you probably all thought it was actually going to be something sad. But it really is to me. I LOVE looking at wedding photography, just like I love watching people dance. Dancing has never been something i'm good at, but has never stopped my love. Photography is also something I struggle with, however this is something I want/ need/ must get better at. So I'm considering taking Kara's advice. And limiting my wedding blogs. Sticking to only the essentials; obviously Jasmine Star. But this might be to hard. But worth it? Debatable.
Also awesome weekend.
Here is my favorite picture, which also happened to be the first one I took.
Our conversation right before the picture was taken was something to the effect of.
kayla- "I wish this had a bottle in it so people thought I was drinking"
Me- "yeah that would be cool"
haha.

its fine.

Today's Happiness,
Curled my hair, so I felt pretty. I realized I don't often feel really beautiful. I mean don't think I'm off crying in a corner. I have a high self-esteem. But lets just say I'm not relying on my looks to get me far in life. But today I put on my cashmere sweater. And curled my hair.
That's also what made me super happy today. I wore my super awesome/ new cashmere (okay so it's only 5% cashmere) but that is 5 percent more than all my others. And its just so comfy.
Anyways so today was/is Courtney's Birthday. So we get ice cream, tried to throw her a cute little party. But it kind of failed. But its okay because her cute Asian friend Hero (I'm sure its spelt differently) came over and made her, and me, crepes. And was so adorable about it. He had even cut up strawberries, and got nutella, and chocolate sauce and whip cream. And make it all beautiful. And it was basically heaven.
Any who afterwards Kayla came over and we made Courtney this sweet Card with ARASHI on the cover.
Let me explain Arashi, they are a Japanese Boy Band. And they are like the hottest people in Japan. And they also happen to all star in Japanese Dramas. Which me and Kayla (okay mainly me) happen to be super into right now. Because Courtney is always watching them. And you know me. I get sucked in super easily.
So I just wanted to introduce you all to my new Japanese Boy Band crush, Meet Kazunari Ninomiya

However everyone calls him Nino, which is just plain adorable. I just watched like 3 hours of him, its fine. :)
Also if you have seen Letter from Iwo Jima. He is in it.

Andy came over today and asked me who my current crush was, and I didn't have an answer for him. For here is your answer only like 5 hours late.

xoxo
Martha Mae.

under control.

I just wanted to let you all know that I can do it. haha
The semester is almost over, and though I have a lot to do. I have laid it all out. And it is totally manageable. I did waste all yesterday watching an Asian Drama, and my eyes hurt now as a result. But I still got all my homework done. Didn't read both Case Studies in American Foundations- but I never do. And I currently have 3 A's and 3 B's assuming I have an A in Dance. If not I'm going to get violent. haha
Anyways its snowing...yes on March 22 it is currently snowing in Rexburg ID. And this morning was so beautiful (but martha standard of beautiful) which means cloudy with little sun breaks.
But now its just snowing, and of course I wore my TOMS today, so really world?!

anywho. School is under control.


also look how adorable this is. Love flower crowns.
and you. (for reading this)

xoxo
Martha.

Current Thoughts and Feelings.

-Somehow spent 170 dollars in 10 days. How?
-Children's Lit is going to kill me.
-Memorizing Classical music pieces was impossible, yet soothing.
-I wish I used my camera more!
-Often want a boyfriend, but don't have time for one. So I want a date.
-Need to drink more water.
-Struggle with finding time to read scriptures, yet somehow always fit in my 15 blogs everyday.
-Enjoy reading, but hate how painfully slow I am.
-Whitney pretty much no longer lives here, and its effecting our friendship.
-Is it important that I plan a Birthday Party for a roommate I often want to kill?!
-Surprisingly stoked about making my first bracket, for March Madness.
-I actually don't hate math- kind of like it. Only hate it when I suck which happens to be often.
-I have had this video Jasmine Star did open on my computer for like a week now, and watch it almost regularly. It's super creepy. I know.

Since I had so many random things rolling around in my head I decided this would be the easiest.
xoxo Martha.



p.s. You know me. Can't have a post without a picture. And this is the picture I'm currently in love with first because, Alexis showed it to me. This photographer is a total creeper like me, and just captured this awesome moment of two strangers. And third it just beautiful, and in a city, and is love. :)

stressed to the max.

warning: just something i needed to type out. Not important.

So this weekend stupidly I really didn't do a ton of homework. I didn't really do a ton of anything, but that bunch of nothing I did added up to me being totally screwed this up coming week. I have 3 major test all before Thursday. And I don't feel prepared at all. I also keep being reminded how exciting it is because the semester is almost over. But when I hear that all I hear is Martha- you have so much crap to do, you are totally screwed.
So I have been having this feeling that I need to get a priesthood blessing ever since I got sick like a month ago, okay so only like 3 weeks. But the feeling has become more and more strong. Even though I'm getting less and less sick. But today I was thinking I really should ask for one. But couldn't think of anyone I'd feel comfortable asking. I know lots of most likely worthy priesthood holders. But I don't feel like I can inconvenience them with this. But then Kayla's home teachers came over and talked about just that. How its so important that we ask for blessings and even if its just for help on a test.
So obviously Heavenly Father is just screaming at my to just ask for a blessing. But of course I just let another opportunity pass by, and I didn't ask. And tonight I feel completely overwhelmed and not ready at all to take on this week.
Wish me luck.
MD.

p.s. Happy Birthday Big Brother. 21 today.

blessed.

So as anyone who has spent any time with me at all. I'm often super whiny, and my favorite person to whine to is Emily. Because she just laughs at me and says "I know, I know your life is so hard." and I say "So hard." haha and we laugh. And I realized how Amazingly blessed my life it.
For example.
My roommate Emily, is awesome.

I get these cute notes all the time. Love it.
Well I don't want to brag to much about my wonderful roommate and make all ya all jealous. But just so she knows.
Emily, you are my hero, my soundboard, and my friend.
Thank you.
I'm sad to loose you to the real world. But I guess I'm loosing you to a great guy, and a amazing future. So good luck. I love you. And thanks for the note.
Made my Night.

xoxo,
Martha.

eh math smath.

First off I'd like to say I'm not procrastinating. I'm choosing not to do my math homework...right now. Yes it is 9pm and yes I do need to go get Kayla from the airport in like 30 minutes. And I haven't started my math homework. But I just love reading blogs more. So give me a break world. Its fine.
Now I'd like to confess my love for Jasmine Star. First what a legit name. Wish I has such a cool name. sigh. Well life goes on Martha Mae is pretty sweet too. Thank You parents (but I think mostly my mother). Also thoughts..Should the husband really have a say on the baby's name... I think not. I mean sure I'd love his input, but when it really comes down to it. Its what I want. It is my baby after all. :)
Okay back to Jasmine Star. First if you don't know who she is we either probably aren't very good friends, or you just never listen to what I say.
Jasmine Star is married to JD (which it actually kind of bugs me that she calls him that, but thats just because I hate initials) However he is totally cool enough to pull it off. They are a photo magic team, and produce classic, beautiful, dare I say up lifting photos. They really do make me want to be a better person. I realize I sound kind of like a tool right now. But I'm just being real. Photography especially her's just makes me melt. Also she happens to be freaking sweet at giving advice. And this is the letter she wrote to herself on her most recent blog.

Dear Jasmine of Tuesday Morning...
You might have failed last night. You might have bombed. Badly. You might have said something you regretted (okay, let's be real, with your mouth, this will definitely happen), but keep in mind you gave it your best shot. You practiced and put together something that will hopefully help a few people. And if it doesn't...well...if it doesn't, you gave it a good shot. Failure isn't new in your life, and it takes a lot of failures to get to success, so learn and let it go.
Besides, you can always wallow in self-loathing surrounding by pints of Ben&Jerry's...and convince JD to buy you that Canon 35mm, 1.4 you want from the tradeshow floor out of sheer pity.
Love,
Jasmine of Monday Morning

I mean really. She can even give great advice to herself. She is so amazing. Definitely my hero, and the reason I almost booked a flight to Vegas this week. Don't worry all those who read my facebook I'm not actually dropping out (yet) and moving to Vegas.

Okay just picked Kayla up from the airport and felt like I had just left Portland too. Such a sad day. Driving back to Rexburg...always the worse. Also can we talk about how me and kayla left same time (her from salt lake, me from rexburg.) and Met in Idaho Falls about the same time. That is ridiculous. Well enough of that whining.
I love my life. Its pretty close to perfect.

xoxo martha.



p.s. Gossip girl was on tonight, can't wait to watch it tomorrow!!!