eh math smath.

First off I'd like to say I'm not procrastinating. I'm choosing not to do my math homework...right now. Yes it is 9pm and yes I do need to go get Kayla from the airport in like 30 minutes. And I haven't started my math homework. But I just love reading blogs more. So give me a break world. Its fine.
Now I'd like to confess my love for Jasmine Star. First what a legit name. Wish I has such a cool name. sigh. Well life goes on Martha Mae is pretty sweet too. Thank You parents (but I think mostly my mother). Also thoughts..Should the husband really have a say on the baby's name... I think not. I mean sure I'd love his input, but when it really comes down to it. Its what I want. It is my baby after all. :)
Okay back to Jasmine Star. First if you don't know who she is we either probably aren't very good friends, or you just never listen to what I say.
Jasmine Star is married to JD (which it actually kind of bugs me that she calls him that, but thats just because I hate initials) However he is totally cool enough to pull it off. They are a photo magic team, and produce classic, beautiful, dare I say up lifting photos. They really do make me want to be a better person. I realize I sound kind of like a tool right now. But I'm just being real. Photography especially her's just makes me melt. Also she happens to be freaking sweet at giving advice. And this is the letter she wrote to herself on her most recent blog.

Dear Jasmine of Tuesday Morning...
You might have failed last night. You might have bombed. Badly. You might have said something you regretted (okay, let's be real, with your mouth, this will definitely happen), but keep in mind you gave it your best shot. You practiced and put together something that will hopefully help a few people. And if it doesn't...well...if it doesn't, you gave it a good shot. Failure isn't new in your life, and it takes a lot of failures to get to success, so learn and let it go.
Besides, you can always wallow in self-loathing surrounding by pints of Ben&Jerry's...and convince JD to buy you that Canon 35mm, 1.4 you want from the tradeshow floor out of sheer pity.
Love,
Jasmine of Monday Morning

I mean really. She can even give great advice to herself. She is so amazing. Definitely my hero, and the reason I almost booked a flight to Vegas this week. Don't worry all those who read my facebook I'm not actually dropping out (yet) and moving to Vegas.

Okay just picked Kayla up from the airport and felt like I had just left Portland too. Such a sad day. Driving back to Rexburg...always the worse. Also can we talk about how me and kayla left same time (her from salt lake, me from rexburg.) and Met in Idaho Falls about the same time. That is ridiculous. Well enough of that whining.
I love my life. Its pretty close to perfect.

xoxo martha.



p.s. Gossip girl was on tonight, can't wait to watch it tomorrow!!!

Stars, and City Lights

So yes it is Saturday night, and I am sitting at home catching up on my blogs. So yes judge me how you will. :) I was almost brave enough to call this guy nate, but first he didn't give me his number. Second I was going to ask to go see Dear John with me. And third, I'm way to chicken.
Also I kind of really like this other guy, but I really just need to get over that. So I'm kind of just hoping Nathan is really awesome, and happens to like losers. (aka me)
My mom today said she would pay for it, if I asked someone out. But really if I ask someone out then they would be like do I need to pay, and then it all becomes awkward. haha Or maybe I'm just awkward. Maybe.

Anyways, I actually wanted to blog because I was getting out of my car tonight and looked up, which I obviously don't do enough. The sky was covered in brilliant stars. I have a slight obsession with the sky. Its constant, and reliable, yet also extremely unpredictable, beautiful, and EPIC! Basically all the things I wish I could be.
While I was just standing there looking at the stars I first thought (wow hope no one walks by and thinks I'm insane) and then I thought that's such a bummer this doesn't happen in big cities. (because of the lights). So I want to know why can't I have both. I love the city, my city, Portland. But I also love being able to SEE all the stars. So I have decided to stop being whiny and just appreciate the stars when I'm here, and the city lights when I'm there. Both are stunning, and just like Portland and Rexburg I love different things about them.
Portland has my family, my Bridger, my best friend Alexis, and all my memories.
Yet in Portland I feel my life stop, it goes to a stand still, and I just watch everyone pass me by.
Rexburg is small, cold, and in Idaho.
Yet it has my wonderful school, byui, my cousin, my best friend Kevin, and new friend Kayla, and it keeps me moving, constantly moving closer and closer to my goals (whatever those might be?!)
So I have decided I love and need both. No one ever said I have to choose stars or city lights, I guess I can have both, just at different times.

goodbyes

I hate saying goodbye, over and over again. And yet I wouldn't give up the chance at seeing my friends even for a moment. Alexis came up this weekend, well mainly Saturday. Which really was NOT enough time. She is one of the loves of my life. And life is just easier, happier, better when she is here with me. It felt so natural too, like she had always just lived on my floor, and gone grocery shopping with me and Dylan every week. And yes I know Alexis you are going to read this. And I don't want to you feel any more pressure from anyone especially me to go to a certain school. But I do love you and would LOVE to have you here with me. But I know you need to go where you want to, and what will be best for you.
Yesterday was a blast, it was Kayla's birthday so we partied it up in her tiny apartment. Kayla even did a Hannah Montana performance for us. (just love that girl).




Well I just wanted you all to know how much I love this girl, and how much I already miss her, its 10:30am, she left at 10am. Thanks for coming up, I know its a super long drive. I love you forever! Give Julenie/ shellynie a hug for me.

One Year?

Okay so I just realized it has been a year, on Thursday, since I left for Hawaii. I feel like that was forever ago, because so much has happened. So i decided to make a list of all the things I have done just this year.

Starting with a very tear filled goodbye. (At Girls Camp)

Attended BYU-Hawaii

Had an intense sinus infection, that made me want to come home.

Picked a Pearl

Got a A in Bowling

Became Friends with Kristin/ Malu

Bought a long board

Worked at the Polynesian Culture Center

Got employee of the month

Watched a very excited Asian play with a baby chick

Took stalker pictures, which someone later on tagged.

Learned how to say hello in at least 6 different languages

Eat excellent eggs, made by egg boy.

Started enjoying football

Was corrupted by Kristin (haha)

Read the Twilight series

Stayed in Honolulu overnight, without planning it.

Watched a lot of TV, on my computer

Played in several rain storms

Took hundreds of pictures

Did a practicum at Laie Elementary School

Nannied on the BIG Island, with Natalie, and Anna

Turned 18

Saw more stars than ever before

Made a mud slip n' slide

Learned how to Hula Dance

GOT TAN!

First Kiss (Huka)

Thanksgiving at a water park, eat gross Tongan food.

Many many Foodland trips.

Had several very LARGE shaved ice's at Angels

Got stung by two Jelly Fish

Watch BYU-H Idol (haha)

Snuck into my very first movie (Mamma Mia)

and then later went and paid to watch it.

Tie Dye- Friday

Dressed up as a Present, for Halloween

Rode The BUS

Watched several AMAZING sunrises

Paid way to much for luggage

Came HOME

Became a Baker at Great Harvest

Played with Bridger, Aidan, Amanda, and Summer

Bought my car

Became a Primary Teacher

Began watching Lost

Went back to YW's (just once)

Went to Patriarch Jensens funeral

Got locked out of the Blatteners House

Had Sacrament at the Henstroms

Became more independent

Went back to Hawaii

Jumped off a water fall

Became a Tourist in Hawaii

Was a guest at Hale Ohana

Hiked Diamond Head/ got sick on Diamond Head

Stayed at the oldest Hotel on Waikiki Beach

Was adopted by the Cooks

Went back to being a lame closer

Went DOWNTOWN

Drove to Rexburg Idaho

Got a flat tire

Watched mom get pulled over

Got pulled over (no ticket)

Currently attending BYU-I

Met my roommates

Met Zach's roommates

Asked someone on a date/ watched a very gay man sing very well.

Watched Hot Rod for the 3rd, 4th, 5th, ....times

Played Kickball

Watch Dave play Volleyball/ Andy scream at Dave

Made Sunday dinners for Dylan

Went shopping with lots of boys.

Made lots of Gyros

Went to the Titon Flood Museum (by myself)

Sold my Plasma

Drove Home/ Watched Zach drive

Surprised Camden

Watched Lord of the Rings

Went to our annual Fireworks show

Came back to Rexburg

Went to Provo

Saw my first Opera

Watched Aunt Kathryn set off the Fire Alarm

Went to Singing in the Rain (and got wet)

Met Donny Osmond

And got a C in "personal health in wellness"

Failed as FHE mom

That brings us to today, June 16, 2009. haha well that was fun. Its weird looking at the things I have remembered doing this year. Well wish me luck this year.