Warning: this is obviously way to long to actually read. This post is pretty much just for me. So just skip it. :)
I don't handle loss well. I know this about myself. But recently it has been worse than ever. Being home my world becomes a lot smaller. I can count my friends on one hand, and the number of people I see in a day on the other. My world encompasses Great Harvest, my home, and a small handful of young families homes as well. And recently there have been some major changes to this small world of mine. Great Harvest is pretty much like my family business. I have worked there since High school, and its like a second (or third or fourth) home. We have always have a love/ hate relationship. But lets get serious I love it there. So the reason Great Harvest is like a home is because I adopted these people I worked with into my life. First Pat and Delena- I worshiped them in high school. They were like best friends that worked together, and Delena introduced me to one tree hill, and they both made me special treats on Saturday mornings. And I loved working with them. Pat passed away probably 2 years ago, and then Delena stopped driving the hour and a half to get to the store everyday and got another job. Then I became close to Dani, she has a brilliant accent and a gorgeous son- what's not to love. I slowly went from being afraid of her, to wanting to marry her son just so she could be my mother-in-law. Work with Dani was easy, fun, and oh so delicious. Then Tammy replaced me when I went back to school, and when I came back to work she just loved me from the beginning and I loved her. Tammy is also the best. She is quick, funny, and always matches. Then there is Jane, I'd describe her as a demanding sweetheart, stuck in her ways... but many of you probably know her as "the slow, older lady." I love Jane, even though few do at the store. This is because A. she is like my grandma, always giving adorable advice. B. Always charming the old men. And C. keeping things the same at the store. This is oddly key. I've worked at Great Harvest for like 3 almost 4 years on and off, and the reason I can do this is because not much changes. Occasionally we will add or take away a bread, but the layout off the bags, knifes, and almost everything else in the store stays the same. So i can always find things- it is great.
But anyways the reason I'm telling you all of this is mainly so I remember. and secondly because they all just left me. Tammy and Dani gave their two weeks notice the same day. And only bothered to tell me about it the day after. I was seriously in shock. I didn't believe that Tammy would stay forever- as she doesn't even like eating our bread. But Dani- she has been at the store since before Craig owned it. Dani and Great Harvest are synonymous in my mind. So her leaving- let alone in two weeks- just turned my whole world upside down. I get it now, and really I only wanted her to stay for me. But she is starting her own business, a pizza store, and I'm sure its going to be adorable and delicious. And then Jane put in her two weeks only a week later and now they are all gone. On Dani and Jane's last days I literally teared up. Yes this is overly dramatic, and yes I felt retarded. But it happened and I miss them both terribly, already. I'm going to miss Jane's "well hmms" and "so's" and repetitive reminders about the soup. And I'm going to miss daily updates on Dani's children- specifically Charles :). And I miss the consistency that they both brought, and I miss Dani's talking to the buzzer, and her speaking to the Swiss customers in German. And I'm going to miss them all just knowing all of our regular customers. Yes I know some of them but not all by name. And going anywhere is so much more special if each morning you are greeted by a "Morning Liz, the usual cup of coffee?" But life goes on, and peoples lives continue, and so will mine. It's obviously just going to take me a while to get over this.
Plus throw in the fact that my Kitten is probably going to be taken to the pound/ put down tomorrow. And you get a fairly emotional Martha. So this is me handling with it, all of it. My kitten is sick, and prolonging his life maybe isn't the nicest thing to do, and yes Scotty is just a Cat. But I have had him and Sophia for almost 6 years so just let me be emotional about this. haha It's fine. My mom told me today that now when I'm thinking about getting pets in my own family I have to be prepared to make these kind of decisions, but I don't think I will ever be able to. I need to be able to blame someone else- guess my husband will have to take over that job. Because obviously I'm owning Cat's. haha And I'm obviously getting married so it's less obvious I'm a crazy Cat lady. Well I love my bitten and hope he is happier in Heaven.
And I hope Jane loves being retired, and I hope Tammy loves wearing her fancy clothes to her desk job, and I truly hope Dani loves owning her own store, and I hope they are wildly successful and bring better pizza to Rexburg ID.
xoxo Martha
p.s. I have no pictures with Dani, Jane or Tammy. And obviously that is extremely upsetting to me- so hopefully I'll remember to bring my camera to their goodbye party on Thursday.
But her is one of me and my kitten- taken tonight.
